Poor dresden dolls ;O And 10 novels a day, yay! XD

& this *puppy eyes* ^_^



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Okay, I've finally, eventually gotten around sorting out my pictures from the EJC, most of them sadly turned out to be crap, randomly blurred and stuff. But some weren't too bad, and others could be saved with lots of photoshopping ;P

For those who don't know yet, EJC = European Juggling Convention. And that's pretty much it, except for that there isn't only people from Europe going there but from all over the world. It takes place in Europe still though and this year's one was in Karlsruhe, that's in Germany, from the 2nd till the 10th of August. If you want to know more about what you can do at these conventions you could for example take a look at the official website of the EJC 08.

Anyway, I present you:

So yeah, I made armwarmes out of a cheap H&M top, stole the idea from that from Greybow-kitten, thank you for the inspiration dear =D I had the idea to make armwarmes a long time ago but I could never figure what fabric or material to use. Now I could. Finished them about 2 weeks ago, but only got around to taking pictures today. They're handsewn as I'm afraid of sewing machines, so the seams are rather sloppily done but I like them a lot. And I'm proud, first proper crafting project I ever finished. =]


On to the picture, click it to enlarge.


Comment, critique, suggestions and inspiration are welcome :P

Okay, okay, sooooooooooo

I saw Radiohead! =)

And it was so so so so awesome, Thom's a genius and so weird, he dances like a robot on speed and the thing with the cameras and the screens, where you could see close-ups of them and the pretty light bars, wow, just wow =D And they played Just and Paranoid Android and Lucky and How To Disappear Completely and Optimistic and There There and  You And Whose Army and 2+2 =5  and more of course (almost all of In Rainbows I think which was quite good actually o.o) - they played 22 songs in total, yay! (setlist) It was awesome, oh yes =) (No Karma Police or Street Spirit though, oh well, I guess I just have to go see them again ;P)
The only annoying thing was, as we were quite far from the stage (no one wanted to go to the fangirl front rows with me *sniff*) the audience was uhem, quiet, or rather, they were statues >_< But oh well <3

What was also quite awesome, was Sigur Ros who played before. What am I saying? They were just HolyCrapHowDoTheyDoItSuperamazing <3 And that even though I've only ever heard one song of them before, and just once, and I didn't even like it? Their music .. I'm gonna have troubles expressing this, but at least the first songs they played, they were like .. sad but not hopeless, and err, they made me feel the whole universe and how I'm part of it and yeah, it was an amazingly intense aesthical experience, how we called it in philosophy, and even one of Kant's experiences of Erhabenheit (something like, grandeur and transendence, in a way).

It was so awesome =) Yes. I know I keep saying the same thing, so I'm gonna stop and spare you now, k? ;P

By the way, maybe I'll add pictures here soon, if they're not too blurry =)

edit: Picturez! =) Clicky them. (I know they're a bit .. ahem, not too great, but yeh.) Maybe more soon, or somewhere else.

      

Heh yeh, it's a livejournal, and even a post on it. Gosh. Actually I only made an account to befriend some people here *glances at certain person* And it was worth it ;P

Anyway. Now I'm bored, since there's no GoS or any WNF site up ... which means, no active forums for me to stalk ;( Also, I don't write enough and I have been thinking about starting a blog again to share my thoughts with the uninterested internet world, so here we go.
Maybe I'll even show some of my "projects" (= crap stuff I make, graphics or sism or whatever)
Feel free to comment on anything in any way, I will not bite you for it ... well if I do, I'll only do that verbally and - it's nothing personal ;P

Maybe this will even make me go back to how I used to be ... a little. As I really have changed a lot, I don't know whether it's just becoming an adult or because of some person *glances at another certain person* ... but I have noticed that I'm not really the dreamy girl with the many,many melancholic philosophic thoughts anymore. I don't know if that's good or bad either, to be honest, I miss being like that now, even though I used to hate it, all the worries and all the happiness only in my mind.
I once read a nice phrase in a novel, it was a really trivial thriller, about how when you write a story or novel, the story continues to write itself in your head, while do other things like go shopping. I used to have that a lot. I was constantly writing down things in my head - fictional or even non-fictional.
But I seem to have lost this. I don't know when that happened. But I want it back. Seeing that even neutral tests say that working with words and language is my rather big talent (100 is the average points people achieve, I had 135) and seeing that I have no clue what to do with myself now that I'm really out of school.

Somehow I really can't imagine anything I'd like to do with my life. Getting a job, starting a family, being a normal grown-up - it all doesn't seem right to me, not what I want, not my life, not my dreams.
Yet I have no clue what my dreams are, except for not letting routine take over.
In another book I once read (this time I even know which one, it was Paulo Coelho's The Zahir) the protagonist met people who had decided to live on the streets because apparently they had the very same feelings towards an ordinary life in this society as I have now.
Sadly I can't imagine that the people that live on the streets in the real world do it due to that. If it was like that, I'd like to meet them. Maybe you don't have to live on the streets for feeling that.
It's a fucked up world and it sometimes scares me.
Come to think of it, I had this weird dream last night, in which someone older (I think one of my parents or grandparents) used the word "pwnd" and that made me go ?How does this person know this word? so I went to look it up in a dictionary, and tada it was a valid word in the german language. Now I'm haunted by the scary thought that in about 100 years or even less, people everywhere will talk like this. Unless the human race or the world or the whole universe has come to an end before.
Speaking of end, the thought that one of my old teachers just died of a heart-attack at 48 years still makes me sad, I feel sorry for him. Yet the worst part was the email about, attachment: "Funeral Becker.pdf"
Damnit, he was human too. He had 3 kids and a wife. It's sick what they did. Funeral Becker.pdf. Just another useless information file-

Oh the vanity and tragedy of the world.

Please tell me what to do with myself!?